My OBEs

[swrong]

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I had my first experience when I was 6 years old, although I didn't know what it was until later. We'd just "dumped" Momma off at the hospital to have my little sister. My father was very abusive. We came home and I wandered into the living room and sat on the couch. I remember being drawn into a french fry I was holding, I remember seeing myself on the couch, I was terrified seeing that, afraid of Daddy seeing me in there, I remember nothing more. I'd get them frequently and soon I'd learn to manipulate them. I'd look at the wall in bed, see a pore in the wall, and it would get closer and closer and closer, until I would be in this HUGE crater, then it would seem like I could float from there. I could see myself, I remember not wanting too though, something would scare me. Towards my teens, it would happen automatically and I couldn't control it, this concerned me. My cousin did this, did research way back then, and found that this practice can be dangerous. This startled me, but the OBEs would just happen. On 2 separate occassions, I remember going back to my body, couldn't seem to get in, I now know the term for this is "stuck". I don't know what happened next, that's all I remember. I woke up both times with the most excruciating headaches that I haven't had since, and I'm 45 now. I learned that when I'd feel it come on, I'd sing, talk, get up, or whatever I had to do to deter it. I never saw the silver thread or whatever color. I didn't travel outside my house, afraid that I'd float away. It seems very dangerous to me. The sensation still tries to come on maybe 2x a year, I halt it right away. My brother-in-law is a psychologist, he told me that every one of his patients who've mentioned having them, lived very traumatic lives and it was their brain's way of protecting them, an escape. I believe this is my case as well.

[scarygirl67]

First of all, I am so sorry you had to go through abuse of any kind...you are very strong for coming through it and being able to talk about it.

Have you read much about astral body projection? It sounds like that's what you were doing...I know that it is more a state of mind than actually leaving your body...it also sounds like you were doing some lucid dreaming there.

If you haven't read anything about it (astral projection), I'll try and track you down some good links to some info about it.

[super.fantastik]

I've definitely heard of this kinda thing before...the mind will go to extremes to protect you.
It's amazing...but very terrifying, as you've shown=)
(I'm sorry about the abuse. I know it all too well.)
Thanx 4 sharinggg~v(^_^)

[swrong]

Thanks for the replies, ya'll. Not to worry about my past, I'm who I am because of it and I've learned to like myself. I am strong. I've recently been able to start talking about it, which is good. LOL, I'm a dork, I thought OBEs and astral projection was the same thing, LOL *blushing*. I'll have to check that out, thanks for the info!

[scarygirl67]

Oh I'm sure it probably is...astral projection is just the term I have always heard used. You're not a dork at all! And I am glad you're able to get things out in the open..that will go a long way in finding the answers to what causes these things to happen.