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I thought I might as well record my premonition here.

I have always been a very logical and scientific person, skeptical of anything supernatural, but I have recently gone through a complicated miscarriage during which I had a premonition of my death.

This was in August. I'd taken misoprostol which hadn't worked and the doctor said to me that I'd need a D&C under general anaesthetic. I immediately 'knew' that I'd die if I had the general anaesthetic. What followed was the most stressful and terrifying time of my life during which I tried to find a hospital that would perform a similar procedure, an MVA, under local anaesthetic.

I succeeded in this, but things haven't gone that well since then. The procedure actually didn't get all of the tissue out, even though I was scanned and told I was in the clear, and I passed another bit of tissue four days later. I've been scanned again since then and everything looks fine, but my HCG dropped very slowly. It took six weeks to drop from 18 to 2.

I still feel that I haven't escaped my fate. I'm going to the gynecologist on Tuesday for a cervical smear. I feel like I may have cervical cancer, requiring a hysterectomy under general anaesthetic. But what I think is more likely is that I still have very very small amounts of placental tissue left, given how firmly the placenta was attached and how slowly the HCG dropped. From this, I fear I may develop a form of gestational trophoblastic disease, also requiring a hysterectomy under general anaesthetic.

If my periods stop, it will be evidence that my HCG has risen again, a sign of gestational trophoblastic disease. I feel that I may not get a period this month.

I'm not in a good way. I've gone from being a normal, happy, successful person to a nonfunctional human being who cannot work, cannot see anyone, has moved in with her mother, can barely do anything.
So you were trying to terminate the pregnancy?
also extreme hormonal changes are to be expected which effect the chemicals in your mind.
How much of the side effects are physiological versus how much is actual medical?


(12-02-2017, 07:26 AM)UglyNRude Wrote: [ -> ]So you were trying to terminate the pregnancy?
also extreme hormonal changes are to be expected which effect the chemicals in your mind.
How much of the side effects are physiological versus how much is actual medical?

No, I had a missed miscarriage. The baby died inside me but didn't come out by itself.

Sorry, not sure what you mean with your question about side effects being physiological vs medical.

Thank you for responding.
(12-02-2017, 04:49 AM)The_Berry Wrote: [ -> ]I thought I might as well record my premonition here.

I have always been a very logical and scientific person, skeptical of anything supernatural, but I have recently gone through a complicated miscarriage during which I had a premonition of my death.

This was in August. I'd taken misoprostol which hadn't worked and the doctor said to me that I'd need a D&C under general anaesthetic. I immediately 'knew' that I'd die if I had the general anaesthetic. What followed was the most stressful and terrifying time of my life during which I tried to find a hospital that would perform a similar procedure, an MVA, under local anaesthetic.

I succeeded in this, but things haven't gone that well since then. The procedure actually didn't get all of the tissue out, even though I was scanned and told I was in the clear, and I passed another bit of tissue four days later. I've been scanned again since then and everything looks fine, but my HCG dropped very slowly. It took six weeks to drop from 18 to 2.

I still feel that I haven't escaped my fate. I'm going to the gynecologist on Tuesday for a cervical smear. I feel like I may have cervical cancer, requiring a hysterectomy under general anaesthetic. But what I think is more likely is that I still have very very small amounts of placental tissue left, given how firmly the placenta was attached and how slowly the HCG dropped. From this, I fear I may develop a form of gestational trophoblastic disease, also requiring a hysterectomy under general anaesthetic.

If my periods stop, it will be evidence that my HCG has risen again, a sign of gestational trophoblastic disease. I feel that I may not get a period this month.

I'm not in a good way. I've gone from being a normal, happy, successful person to a nonfunctional human being who cannot work, cannot see anyone, has moved in with her mother, can barely do anything.
I just now prayed for you. Hopefully this premonition will turn out to be a false sense or perhaps that efforts were taken by you changed what was destined, such as the premonition was given as a warning so that it can be changed.
(12-02-2017, 10:13 PM)jlitt Wrote: [ -> ]
(12-02-2017, 04:49 AM)The_Berry Wrote: [ -> ]I thought I might as well record my premonition here.

I have always been a very logical and scientific person, skeptical of anything supernatural, but I have recently gone through a complicated miscarriage during which I had a premonition of my death.

This was in August. I'd taken misoprostol which hadn't worked and the doctor said to me that I'd need a D&C under general anaesthetic. I immediately 'knew' that I'd die if I had the general anaesthetic. What followed was the most stressful and terrifying time of my life during which I tried to find a hospital that would perform a similar procedure, an MVA, under local anaesthetic.

I succeeded in this, but things haven't gone that well since then. The procedure actually didn't get all of the tissue out, even though I was scanned and told I was in the clear, and I passed another bit of tissue four days later. I've been scanned again since then and everything looks fine, but my HCG dropped very slowly. It took six weeks to drop from 18 to 2.

I still feel that I haven't escaped my fate. I'm going to the gynecologist on Tuesday for a cervical smear. I feel like I may have cervical cancer, requiring a hysterectomy under general anaesthetic. But what I think is more likely is that I still have very very small amounts of placental tissue left, given how firmly the placenta was attached and how slowly the HCG dropped. From this, I fear I may develop a form of gestational trophoblastic disease, also requiring a hysterectomy under general anaesthetic.

If my periods stop, it will be evidence that my HCG has risen again, a sign of gestational trophoblastic disease. I feel that I may not get a period this month.

I'm not in a good way. I've gone from being a normal, happy, successful person to a nonfunctional human being who cannot work, cannot see anyone, has moved in with her mother, can barely do anything.
I just now prayed for you. Hopefully this premonition will turn out to be a false sense or perhaps that efforts were taken by you changed what was destined, such as the premonition was given as a warning so that it can be changed.

Thank you. I have done some bad things, so I may deserve it.
We all have done bad things, dont ne so hard on yourself.
My doctors think I am fine. I still don't think so. We will see.
(12-22-2017, 02:13 PM)The_Berry Wrote: [ -> ]My doctors think I am fine. I still don't think so. We will see. My Facebook is ..... so you can check if anything happens to me.

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Having a miscarriage is hard on your body and your mind. You feel death inside you and it does mess with your mental state and hormones to no ends. I am so sorry about this and I know how you feel. I think it may be your mind so scared due to you had such a close relationship with that which died inside you that it makes you not think right. Something else is that we hear all sorts of stories of people never making it going under and it sticks in our minds and slips out when we are sleeping or in deep thought. Things will get better for you. It could take up to a year or maybe longer for some but you will be fine soon.
I just don't know. It feels so real. I might have some cervical tests next year. My doctors say I'm fine and I don't need any tests but I strongly feel that they'll find something. At first I thought it would be gestational trophoblastic disease, but maybe it'll be something else. Thank you for your replies.
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